Doing nothing
“Doing nothing is really heavy work.”
Another whirlwind and somewhat strange week has passed us by.
Don't know about you, but I've been eating more, have hit the snooze button A LOT - in fact, yesterday I hit it every 10 minutes for 1.5hrs - that's how tired I was. I couldn't even bring myself to reset the alarm but instead opted for a semi-wakeup every 9 minutes. And, I have been THINKING a lot more.
It seems while so much of life as we once knew it has been taken away, we're still doing a lot.
That thing I teach, about 'being', seemed to escape me for a number of hazy days.
In a rush to produce, innovate, put out new ways of making my business and meditation teaching tick over and stay above water.
The day before the snooze button incident I made a conscious decision to leave social media alone (for most, not the whole day), to pick up a book while my little one napped and my almost 5yo kept herself occupied with crafts. I chose to make some wholesome pancakes for breakfast, slowly and mindfully, instead of the routine oats cooked on the stove with ghee and almond milk.
And what do you know, my body surrendered to the 'being'. It let go. It let out a big sigh. It finally surrendered to what is, not what I want these days to be.
Why didn't I do it earlier?
I didn't do it, because it IS HARD. The doing nothing part that we've been conditioned against - instead to always be doing, and not being - is the default trap we fall in when what we've become comfortable with is all of a sudden taken away.
We are forced to see more of ourselves and more of those we live with. This is not just in the physical sense, but emotionally, mentally and in some cases, spiritually.
Doing nothing IS the work. Doing your daily meditation IS the work. Sometimes it's gratifying and sometimes (especially now), it can be absolutely agitating.
Doing nothing when we're so accustomed to doing everything, is hard. When the outside noise is given a reason to stay out, the truth of what we are emerges.
What are we? We are love. We are love manifested. When this happens (the realisation of this truth), the challenge will be at what level of awareness you meet this truth with in order to move forward with creative desire, grace and flow.
Written with love,
Natasha